I don’t know how to explain this, but I will try.
I don’t feel emotion like other people, but I feel attachment. I’ve been working on feeling emotion in therapy for about ten years.
My therapist says that because I feel anxious, rage, and depression I can feel other emotions. They say I have somehow blocked all other emotions and that, when I unblock them, I will enjoy life.
I don’t know how these other emotions are going to make me enjoy life. I’ve been researching it and love causes pain, humiliation, and guilt. Happiness is always ripped away from you when you need it the most.
All these”good” feelings seem to be the gateway to more pain.
Why do this to yourself? I am at a point where I can choose to be like other people, inviting more pain into my life, or I can continue the way I have been and just deal with rage, depression, anxiety, and paranoia.
That’s the question today. Why should I unblock the other emotions?
Until next time…