I have a question. Perhaps, it’s a selfish and self pity kind of question, but l can’t help that.
If I suddenly disappeared, would anyone notice?
If they did notice, would they care?
I mean, would they miss me or the stuff I do for them?
My life coach would miss me. We have been friends for about ten years. She knows me better than any one.
Bikerman is my first husband’s best friend. I have always thought their friendship was awesome. Watching those two together was an entertainment I have never found since. It was like they could read each other’s minds. One of them would grab a tool and hold it out for the other one before they asked for it.
I have always had a huge crush on Bikerman, but he was married. I have never known any man to be faithful, except him.
Amazingly enough, he is one of the three men I respect. One is dead. That is my Dad. He did a lot of immoral things, but he was there for me when I needed him.
Bikerman and husband 1 are the other two.
After thinking about this, while writing this post, I remember that I am attracted to worthless men.
This is what I grew up with and what I am”comfortable” with.
You know, it’s better to dance with a known devil than take a chance on an unknown angel.
What this means is we are more comfortable with an unhealthy but known type of person than we are taking a chance on a healthy but unknown type of person.